My Thoughts

My diagnosis:

Fond of tradition, but attached more to the joy of human interaction, you are often a beacon of hope to those members of society who have lost faith or who are in need of succor. You are often emotional, and this emotionality is rarely held in check. Kind and helping by nature, when affronted you will explode, and just as suddenly when the pain has passed return to normalcy again. On occasion this quick and vibrant emotionality is translated into a life on the stage or screen. You have a strong sense of right and wrong, but can sometimes be left confused and uncertain in times of stress or when tough decisions must be made. You avoid conflict, tending to stay out of trouble in hopes that the group will benefit most from this behavior. Because you have trouble putting your own needs first, you will be put in much stress if you find yourself in an unequal relationship, one in which your partner is not as giving as you are.

funny how much a program knows about you based on what shapes you pick…

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Where do I begin?

These last few days have been awesome and just all over the place. I left school a little early to go up to Boston and I had an awesome time. I got to see Tim Wise speak, spend some quality time with the sister, and I got to grab dinner with one of my really good friends. Now I’m back home and after spending some time with some friends from back home, I leave for school tomorrow. There’s a week left of classes and then finals and then I’m back home for the summer.

Where the hell did all the time go? It seems like it was only a month ago my said bye to my dad at the train station. College has been a great experience for me, but what am I doing with my life? One year has already gone by so quickly and I have no idea what I’m doing. Other people have jobs, other people are studying abroad and traveling the world, but what am I doing? Most likely I’ll be sitting at home, rotting away and dog sitting. 

I realize that I regret way too many things. I regret not taking in interest in sports earlier. I regret not spending more time with my dad when I was younger. I regret not trying harder in school. I know that it’s so cliche, but ever since senior year, I told myself I wanted to live without regrets. I wanted to make sure that when I look back on things, I wouldn’t be disappointed in how I acted. I even told my friend recently to just go for it. Don’t think. Just act on how you feel. Problem is I can’t follow my own advice. I’m still too afraid to act on how I feel and I regret that too. There’s a girl. There’s always a girl, haha. It’s not smart for me to pursue this, but I can’t help how I feel. I wonder how things would turn out. I’m definitely not going to act on this either: just another thing to add on to my list of regrets, but hey, a man can dream right? There’s a quote that always stuck with me from the movie “I Think I Love My Wife” and the quote goes, “Life is long. You’re probably not gonna get hit by a bus. And you’re gonna have to live with the choices you make for the next fifty years” It’s because of this mentality that I’m afraid to be spontaneous and impulsive. There are times that call for being spontaneous and impulsive and there are times that don’t. My problem is deciding when to be what.